Worth the wait?

Been emotionally unstable lately..

I dunno why..

But I just feel uneasy, unhappy, etc..

As much I try to be but I know I'm just being hypocrite..

Im lying to myself..

The fact that the 'communication' has brighten up my life, 

I know it won't last..

Even though by receiving a simple reply would have made me smile

through out the entire life..

However, I started to giving up (of the happiness) when I don't think

I worth the wait for a reply..

Every single second, every single minute and hour, I keep on

checking to my email.. 

But none.. Nothing...

I know what type he is and what type he was..

How quick a response could be but when I got it 
only after a week or more than that, 
I started to realised how important I am.. 
not as important as I was..

I cannot voice it out cuz I know where do I stand.. 

Let everything come n happen as it is..
One thing for sure, I'm glad that he's back
after 4years of silence..
I couldn't ask for anything more..

Now, maybe I need to work on my own..

Never put any hope, any expection, reflect and just go on with life..

Cuz he has a better life to focus on..

And I'm just a place where he looked for whenever he feels bored...

xoxo