Check Up!

Went for O&G check up yesterday. As usual, first thing after sending me to office, hubby will go and get the number at Pantai Bangsar MC and I will take half day since the usual hour to meet the gynae is always after 2pm. He picked me up at 1pm. This time round once we reached at the hospital, the nurse straight away call me in. I guess my turn has been skipped when i haven't got there. But yeah, i'm glad since we dont need to wait for too long this time.

Met my gynae, Dr. Idora. She is so so so nice. Her voice is so soft that sometimes i hardly listen to her. She was not that well. So the meeting, checking and scanning just took about 15-20 minutes. As my pregnancy is already in the 33th week, there's another 6 weeks left!!!! *Seriously...why so fast one?* My edd will be on 27 Jan 2016 and guess what, when i told my gynae how did i felt recently, with stomach cramp, 'period-pain' feeling, etc, she said that is probably an early contraction. Oh okayyyy... I've been told by many about the feeling of contractions but of course i have no idea about it at all. This is my 1st experience, there's sooooo many things that i don't know. Just pray that everything goes well.

So my next appointment will be on the 26 Dec 2015. We chose to go on Saturday cuz hubby doesn't has any leave left. Hohoho.. 

Till we meet again.

xoxo

Love yourself first

"It's sad to see a beautiful woman with a big heart and so much potential wasting her time, losing her dignity, her values and self-respect for a sorry ass excuse of a man. A man that has nothing to offer her but pain, stress, lies and tears... a man that doesn't know her worth and is too blinded by his greed to find more jewels for his collection.... a man that will only use her to his advantage and ultimately bring down her self-esteem... and make her believe that there is no one else better than him out there. --Never for a second believe that there isn't someone better out there, cause there is. "Man" is probably too big and too good of a word to describe a pig....Don't put up with a pig out of fear of being alone."

Love yourself first.

#foundthisonsocialmedia

#justsharing

Babe..

Perasan tak muram air muka?

Mungkin tidak kerana ku dah kau lupa

Jauh di mata, apatah lagi hati

Riuh tetap sunyi bila kau bersendiri

Patutlah lagu tidak semerdu

Puputan bayu dah tak senyaman dulu

Ku pasti kerana tiada pelengkapnya

Ketiadaanmu dirasa

Jangan serkap jarang hidup ku bahagia

Memang berat tak ku nafikannya

Walaupun cintamu rapuh dan keyakinan runtuh

Dengar ku bicara

Oh babe, ku masih menyinta

Oh babe, ku masih setia

Pilu...lara...hiba dijiwa

Kelabu di kalbuku

Oh babe, ku makin tersiksa

Oh babe, ku makin terasa haru

Bisakan disembuh andainya kau disisiku

Oh babe ku masih perlukanku

Sehari dua mungkin boleh ku harung

Masuk ketiga berlewah ku termenung

Selepas seminggu fikiranku bercelaru

Meruap-ruap bimbangku

Ke sana-sini terpinga tercari-cari

Petanda kau masih menyayangi

Walau cinta kau pudar, kan ku teruskan jua

Rontaku dijiwa

Luahkan saja sebabnya

Punca kita tak sehala

Akan ku ubah sikapku

Seperti yang kau mahu

Katakan saja kau pinta

Walau tuk hujan diradah

Agar tak basahi cinta kita yang goyah
Kembalilah...

Hello diary

Hello diary. I miss you.. I know u miss me too.. :)

Sleepless Nite :(

I couldn't sleep the whole nite yesterday.

Feeling guilty, feeling sinned..

One rejection after another..

I feel bad..

I feel sinned...

What type of wife am i? :(

I dunno.. I just feel bad 

But in the same time, I just don't want things to happen..

Im not into it..

Am i sinned?

*Sigh*

My version: "When a Good Memory is Very Bad for your Marriage"

Its not a Goodbye!

16 October 2015

Its not the Goodbye that hurts 

BUT the Flashback that follows....

Bye2 Sweetheart..

Will be missing you so bad.. :(

Argument

When u have to argue with your boss and you know that you are right and what she is trying to do is strictly baseless and wasting of time, u will feel like UURRGGHHHHHH and whatever.. and i eventually have told her right to her face, if she wants to do it, do it herself!!!! (level dah tak leh blah..)

Sekian report utk keje arini. 

Terima kasih

UURRRGGHHHH!!!

"Di mana ruang hati yg belum kau huni"

Kini kau tiada

Senafas pun ku perlu mencuba

Kau bawa pergi sebahagian dari jiwa raga

Bersendiri hidup umpama hilang erti

Bagaimanakah meneruskan hayat ini

Andai ku bercinta lagi suatu hari nanti

Tunjukkan di mana

Ruang hati untuknya yang masih belum kau huni

Apabila tiba waktu bersemuka

Ku perlu pejamkan mata dan memaksa lafaz cinta

Dengan bayangmu di minda

Tiada pengganti bisa hadir dan mampu menyembuh

Rawan di hati meleraikan semangatku runtuh

Bersendiri masa umpama tak beralih

Berapa lama lagi harus ku merintih

Malam tidak berpurnama

Fajar tiada kejora

Aku hilang di dalam gelita kalbu

Tanpa dirimu rasa ku mati

Wordless..

Dahsyat

A very meaningful song n lyrics for me...... 

Aku cinta kamu

Lebih dari hatiku mampu

Pasti jiwa takkan bisa

Hidup tanpa hadirnya kamu

Sungguh dahsyatnya

Cintaku kepada kamu

Aku mohon jangan pergi

Menyiksaku dengan rindu

Kita dua hati

Selamanya takkan terpisah

Kau dan aku punya cinta

Paling terindah di dunia

Sungguh dahsyatnya

Cintaku kepada kamu

Aku mohon jangan pergi

Menyiksaku dengan rindu

Ohhh

Tiada yang bisa

Mengisi ruang di hati

Aku mohon jangan pergi

Jiwa ini perlu kamu

Ohh.. Wohooohh…

Tetap cinta selama-lamanya

Sungguh dahsyatnya

Cintaku kepada kamu

Aku mohon jangan pergi

Menyiksaku dengan rindu

Ohhhh

Tiada yang bisa

Mengisi ruang di hati

Aku mohon jangan pergi

Jiwa ini perlu kamu

Holaaa =)

Hello world!

I'm 21 week old now..

Look at my pic here..

I'm 18th week old in that picture. Am i cute? hihihi

The gynae said my birthday will be in January next year.

Cant wait to see my mummy and ayah =)

I think I have overheard that my parents have selected few names for me..

But I cannot disclose it yet.. :p

So, dont forget to see my future pic next two weeks..

My next appointment with the gynae..

For time being, i will just shake it shake it my mummy's tummy.. 

Till next entry.. Daaaa...

Legaaaa!

Fuhhhh... i feel so relieved! Finally done with my prime discussion with managers and prime submission to the department.. Been working on it for a week!!! This time round, prime memang weols buat detailed. Maklum la, semua benda nak high expectation.. Peninggg!

So, yeah, happy nya sayaaaa!!! Dah la esok cuti.. Ok pk nadia.. ko nak buat ape esok... pk pk... Nak dok umah sorang2 ke, nak lepak dgn member ke, nk balik umah mak ke... Pandai2 la bawak diri ye.. Since suami kene keje kan.. Eh chup.. Bukan kene keje.. dia memang keje.. Dia mana ikut calendar negara ni. Dia ikut negara jerman sana.. Huh... Sedih!!! *nada azw*n *li* hahaha...

Okla.. nak kemas2 meja, nak balikkk! (Walaupon ade lagi setengah jam)

Kire arini keje utk buat prime je.. keje lain takyah buat dah.. buat macam ofis bapak sendiri.. hahahaha

3 Facts abt Nadia

Cuba baca sikit tajuk tu....

3 facts about Nadia.. Hurmmm..

Susah tu.. tak leh nak pikir.. Actually benda tu mgr i yg mintak.. Semua fle kene submit benda yg sama. Dorg nk 3 facts pasal kite yg buat kite special dari org lain a.k.a kene jual diri sendiri la ni a.k.a perasan sendiri or syok sendiri.. Hahaha..

Ape la yg aku nk tulis nnt kan...

Nway, i dah ade idea dh.. tp instead of 3, i nk bg 4.. so yg nombor 4 confirm i akan letak yg as below...

1. xxxx

2. xxxx

3. xxxx

4. cute 

=)

Aci tak??? Aci la kan... huihuihui.... Okbai!

My Blur Girlfriend

Semalam takde angin takde ribut tiba2 pokok bergoyang. Heh. Bukan bukan.. Takde angin takde hujan, tiba2 kawan i sorang ni whatsapp... Fuhhh.. berkurun jugak la dia tak whatsapp.. Ada la dalam 2 bulan (kire lama la jugak kan). Sebab sebelum ni dia keje kat Allian*e Ba*k, senang nak lepak. Dia jalan kaki je sampai office i, pastu we all lepak SK. Tapi lepas dia quit and join M*SB, terus senyap sunyi.. Nak tau nape dia whatsapp i? Sebab rupa2nya dia dh jadi fulltime housewife.. Hahaha.. Ini mmg lawak.. Tula.. Dulu masa join M*SB tanak pk panjang.. Kan dah terkono :)

So selain citer pasal citer status dia yg dh tukar jd housewife tu, dia ade la tanya kabar i, kabar baby.. Sweet sgt! And the best part is, dia pon tgh pregnant sekarang ni. Best kan?! Best kan?! Tapi dia baru nk masuk 3 bulan.. So baby we all beza dalam sebulan lebih macam tu la.. Still sebaya... Yehuuuuu! 

Masa tengah borak2 tu, soalan cepumas si minah ni kasi. Dah scan? Dah tau gender? So knowing her seorang minah yg sgt blur, i pon mainkan dia la smlm. Lawak giler... Sila la rujuk petikan whatsapp we all smlm... Lalalala...

Dia punya la percaya, siap tanya in details lagi.. Maybe dia excited sebab hubby dia pon ade twins.. hehehe... 

Nway, kesinambungan citer ni, we all pon pegi la lunch td.. Org lunch pukul 12.30, si minah ni blh sampai pukul 1.30.. Sabar jela.. So pegi lanai jela... 

*nasib baik dia belanje* huhu

Sekian, wassalam =)

Just be...

Its PRIME time!

Yuhuuuuu...

This is the time bebehhhh...

Pasti ramai yg suka time time prime macam ni..

Semua dok menggelabah form prime tu tak isi-isi..

Ada yg malas, ada yg takde idea...

Bila M suruh i submit prime form, dia siap suruh mention 3 achievements of the year, selamber je i jawab...

"Sorry la boss. I bukan tanak submit, tapi i takde achievement. I terlampau byk sgt buat keje tapi tu keje2 yg i buat semua keje2 amal.." hahahahaha

Amacam? So rilek dulu... Take a break with kit kat =)

One day....

All my bags are packed
I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin'
It's early morn
The taxi's waitin'
He's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome
I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
'Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I tell you now, they don't mean a thing
Ev'ry place I go, I'll think of you
Ev'ry song I sing, I'll sing for you
When I come back, I'll bring your wedding ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
'Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time
Let me kiss you
Then close your eyes
I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times, I won't have to say

Oh, kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
'Cause I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

But, I'm leavin' on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Derhaka kah aku?

..........................................................????

Hurmmm

Another post that i saw recently...and its public...

"I learned how to miss you without wanting you....."

Why? Hurmmm.... 

STRANGER

I saw someone posted this on his FB which the page is supposed to be private. But he did mentioned to me (yes we spoke) that whichever entry that can be viewed, he actually purposely dedicate it to me. Hurmmmm..

Girl you'd better quit looking at me like that
You know your man is gonna kill you damn
You see he wanna love you and I promise he'll never change
So you go in here and you wonder
Why didn't you get my number
I need to understand
How you can be

[Chorus:]
Be so strange, be so strange
You can be so strange, be so strange, strange, strange
You far from a stranger, stranger
Swear that I know you
Stranger, stranger promise that I need you
Say you far from a stranger
Miss the way that I feel (way that I feel)
Stranger
Wanna get to know you better
Stranger, stranger
Swear that I know you
Stranger, stranger promise that I need you
Stranger
Miss the way that I feel
Stranger
Wanna get to know you better

See I let you go again
When I see you at the supermarket
You had your son in a stroller
So, I said there's no way I can disrespect him
He wouldn't be cool if he did the same thing to me
You got closer to me and I said..

[Chorus:]
Be so strange (damn you'll be fine and my name is Marques), be so strange
You can be so strange (meet me at a club and we roll), be so strange, strange, strange
You far from a stranger, stranger
Swear that I know you
Stranger, stranger promise that I need you
Stranger
Miss the way that I feel (way that I feel)
Stranger
Wanna get to know you better
Stranger, stranger
Swear that I know you
Stranger, stranger promise that I need you
Stranger
Miss the way that I feel
Stranger
Wanna get to know you better

[Bridge:]
Fellas if you know what I'm sayin lemme hear ya say oh oh oh oh
Now my ladies if you hear what I'm sayin' let me hear ya say yeaaah
Now my (?) let me hear ya saying oh oh oh ah
Lay if you love him never (?) another try and let me hear ya say eh eh eh eh

[Chorus:]
Be so strange, be so strange
You can be so strange, be so strange, strange, strange
You far from a stranger, stranger
Swear that I know you
Stranger, stranger promise that I need you
Say you far from a stranger
Miss the way that I feel (way that I feel)
Stranger
Wanna get to know you better
Stranger, stranger
Swear that I know you
Stranger, stranger promise that I need you
Stranger
Miss the way that I feel
Stranger
Wanna get to know you better

Stranger, Stranger
Swear that I know you
Stranger, stranger promise that I need you

by 

MARQUES HOUSTON

Baju Ghaye!

Raya tahun ni pening kepala sikit. Kenapa? Sebab banyak baju kurung yg dah tak muat. Seriously. Especially baju2 kurung modern. Haihhhh.. Actually baju muat, kain tu yg tak muat. Sampai tang pinggang mesti tak boleh zip. Maklum la dulu pinggang size 27 sekarang 37.5. Mai aiii.. Terkezut ai.. Tapi takpela baby punya pasal, Kene la sacrifice sikit.

So so so… baju raya apa nk pakai ni????

Ada la beberapa option yg I dh beli….. 

Terpaksa gigih cari semata-mata nk pakai raya ni..

Baju 1

It's a Jubah! 

Apa??? Jubah???!!

Ye ye.. Tau.. Tak payah nk drama sgt nadia oiii...

I ni mmg bukan si pemakai jubah.. tak pernah umur pakai jubah and tak pernah suka pakai jubah. 

Dulu2 ada mindset org2 tua je yg pakai jubah. Sp since I kan still muda, mana nk pakai jubah2 ni.. Hahaha. Poyo giler kan.. 

Sekali…..... sekali je yeh.. 

Sekali masa jalan2 cari barang hantaran dulu, tiba2 ternampak satu jubah kat patung satu kedai ni.. Dalam hati cakap “Eh macam cantik je.. macam cantik je…” So I pon Tanya Zhaf cantik tak.. Guess what? Dia terkejut giler.. Dia boleh cakap, “Aikkk biar betul u ni? Sejak bila suka jubah ni? I mmg tak pernah nampak pon u pakai jubah” Haaa amik kau…...!

Entah la nmpk kat patung tu mcm cantik tapi tak tau la kalau I pakai jadi tak cantik plak.. Pastu Zhaf tanya whether I nak ke tak? If nak boleh buat as one of the hantaran since price dia pon nearly half a thousand.. *GULPPP* Since I tak pernah beli jubah and having it as a hantaran would be something strange and different, so I agreed! Dia cakap boleh letak satu dulang with telekung =) So here you are.. Mmg ditakdirkan perot pon dh besar time ni and ada plak jubah tu (macam tau2 je kan), I decided to wear the jubah on the first raya.

Taraaaa.. Ni la jubah tu =)

Baju 2

Google baju2 yg loose preferably blouse la.. since perot dh besar kan.. So dok search la baju online kt IG. Nak pegi cari kat shopping complex mmg tak dan la kan.. Dah la doctor suruh bedrest 3 minggu, takkan nk pegi jalan2 plak.. Mau bleeding lagi karang.. So pagi petang siang malam dok search kt IG, last2 jumpa blouse.. Simple je.. tapi macam menarik.. Blue chiffon blouse with chunky beads and prada lace sleeve.. Haaaa description mesti kene power.. hahaha.. I jumpa blouse tu kat BEADMEPLEASE. Cantik2 jugak dorang punya workmanship. So I beli blouse tu dgn matching grey satin shawl. 

Ok cun! Done for second baju =)

Baju 3

Ok I dh ade 2 baju tapi tiba2 baju ketiga boleh muncul plak… Padahal dh ada 2 baju ni.. Baju no 3 ni special sikit pasal I mmg dah lama cari material batik crepe ni.. Selalunya batik crepe ni yg cantik2 mai dari Kelantan, tapi bila dorg jual kt KL, mesti mahal, kain je starting price RM350-380. Tu baru start, harga dia boleh pegi sampai RM700-800…  So jumpa baju ni kt IG and dh siap jadi baju baru RM350. Cantik pon cantik.  And I beli sebabbbb….. dia buat kaften.. so kalau perot dh 9 bulan pon still boleh pakai. Haa bijak tak??? 

So, beli batik crepe kaften ni kat mane? 

Haaa actually yg jual ni kawan I, lea azlan. Dia ni kire fashion icon la.. Beauty with brain lagi. I mmg salute kat dia, dia ni doctor doing specialization in ENT, dh la cantik, pandai plak tu.. So recently dia buat business batik ni. Dia pon mmg asal dari Kelantan.. Batik tu siap hand drawn and mmg stock sangat2 limited. 

*Siapa lambat, melepas!* 

Kalau siapa2 nk beli, boleh la usha IG dia SHOPAHOLEA and follow la IG lea sekali LEA_AZLAN cuz dia suka share dia pakai ape, dari mana, ootd dia semua best2…

Ni la kawan i, Lea.. Dr. Lea =) *baju i belum rasmikan lagi*

So, why bother why bother.. I ada 3 baju dh sekarang ni… Syukur ada baju.. So nnt I share entry kasut raya plak eh. Eh! Kasut pon ade entry ke?? Ade la.. skrg semua kene pakai flat.. Mana boleh pakai high heels dah.. 

Huwarggghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okbai 

Sebulan di bulan puasa!

Haaaaa, tajuk tu sendiri dah mewakili entry post utk satu bulan utk bulan puasa ni.

Kenapa? Sebab sepanjang bulan puasa ni saya tak puasa. Hahaha... Ooops!

Bukan sengaja……. Tapi atas nasihat para doctor dan kawan2…

Kenapa tak dinasihatkan utk puasa? Sebabbbb……… sebabbb….. Jeng jeng jengggg….

Sebabnya…. Saya tak boleh puasa la.. hahahaha..

Ok la ok la.... Sebabnya...

Sebab during1^st trimester ni ‘benda’ tu tak kuat lagi. So, he/she needs sufficient nutrition.. So saya kenalah makan...Haaa skrg sudah ada faham??

So begitu la ceritanya.. Tak leh puasa.. Tapi tak puasa tak puasa pon, time buka puasa tu, saya la yg paling semangat! Nak makan itu la ini la.. Mengalahkan org yg puasa! Puiiii…

So, sepanjang bulan puasa ni idok ler saya nak post entry byk2 especially iftar di sana, iftar di sini, iftar bersama dia tu, iftar bersama dia ni… Takde maknanya…

Dalam 1 bulan ni, selain Zhaf dgn family sendiri, saya cuma ada buka dgn of course Sheila, the Cins and Zumbaclan.. Tu je.. Nk buka dgn org lain ramai2 tu mmg tak larat.. Oh dgn geng Ampang pon ade..

Jadi…. Kesimpulannya…..

Saya terpaksalah membayar balik puasa saya selama 30 hari… 

Sekian, wassalam…….

*nangissssss*

Adoiii

Sakit tekak. Adoi…!!! 

Rasa macam bengkak kat area tonsil tu. Macam mano ni??

Apa tips utk hilangkan rasa sakit tekak ni yeh selain minum air byk2? 

#blank #sakit #help

Sedih...! 

Ok la. I nak pegi surau. 

Okbai!!! 

(baik kan pegi surau. Kuikui)

Monday bluess

Yo yo.. Wussup wussup!

Apa kabar semua??? (macam la ramai kan yg baca blog ni..heh!)

Hari ni isnin.. Macam biasa la.. Mula2 masa nk bangun pegi keje tu lembikkkk je.. tapi bila dh sampai ofis, tak menang tangan. Byk betul keje kene buat.. Orang vvip la katakan.. Sampai macam x cukup2 masa yg ada.. Lunch hour pon tak sempat nak keluar..Puiii *drama giler*

So, walaupon hari ni monday blues, tapi kene ingat, jangan sampai otak pon ikut biru ya kawan2.. Ekekeke... 

Sekian, wassalam.. 

Selamat beramal =)